Healthy

I am so ready to get healthy. I stopped working out and started eating horribly so I am ready to get back in the game. From now on only healthy veggies and fruits no more greasy burgers. My neighbor convinced me to start training to run a half marathon which will probaby be the death of me. I will definayely keep everyone up dated. Wish me luck!

anxiety

In general I am an extremely anxious person. I am fairly sure that I have GAD general anxiety disorder. It steams from the fact that I am a control freak and I start to worry about things that I cannot control. Such as the people in my life who take more risks than I do and don't always think about the consequences. I will worry myself until I am physically sicks for days on end over things that I cannot do anything about. Steven says that I should be on Xanax or something along those lines but I cannot stand taking any medication that is not dire.

Currently I am completely stressed about my classes. I have just decided to switch my major to psychology. The reason for the switch is I cannot stand any of my current classes. I do not find them interesting at all, I don't want to end up spending 4 years taking classes I despise to end up with a job I despise. One of my biggest fears is that at 30 i'm going to hate my life and want to start over. I know it maybe naive and childish but I just want to get it right the first time.

I have my life loosely planned out right now in my head. Graduate, go to grad school if necessary, find a house that I can afford (preferably an older home), move in with my significant other, travel, get engaged, get married, have a kid. I want to do all of this in the next 10 or so years. It is completely ridiculous that I an almost 20 year old college student has this all planned out to a T. I will start to worry about what happens if I fall off track and don't have my significant other in time or can't get preggers right away. I don't want to have the kid with the "older parents". My boy on the other hand is the complete opposite and has nothing planned out. He just lives life as it comes, he follows through with his commitments when he makes them and always pays his bills on time but just doesn't worry.

I am so unbelievably jealous, I wish I could just be as carefree as he is but I don't think its in my genetics. I have the mom gene. I am the one who keeps track of everyone knows where we are going, takes care of the girl who is too drunk and make sure no ones loses their cell phone at the party. I keeps band aids in my purse in case someone gets a blister. I try to be prepared for everything but it feels like nothing works the way I plan  it, but I can't stop planning.

Any suggestions?

Lobster Night

So my family has created its own holiday that occurs every fall. We call it lobster night, we all get together and have a huge seafood feast. We start off with lobster bisque, move on to little neck clams, and finish off with each of us eating a whole Maine lobster. It is quite wonderful but i'm pretty sure I gained about five pounds from all the food I ate.

Home

I'm going home today for the weekend..... lots of fun posts soon to come.

Wine Glasses

I am absolutely in love with drinking anything out of a wine glass. For some reason it just makes everything feel classy. Just drinking a glass of water looks so much prettier they look splendid when set out on a table. Plus the fun sound the ice cubes make when they hit the glass definitely gives it a little extra.

My Favorite Songs at the Moment

http://www.last.fm/user/katttelynnn/library/playlists/4mrfh_current_loves

Sleep Deprivation

Mid Terms will be with death of me. Last night for some reason I just could not sleep, so I'm currently running on about 3 hours of half sleep, have three large tests this week and am going to go visit my boy and family this weekend.  Luckily I have the movie Coco Before Channel to save me whilst I am studying and an energy drink it is so unfortunate in times like these that I do not enjoy coffee. Lets just hope I don't fall asleep when I should be studying.

Yummm

My grandma loves me and sends her frozen spaghetti sauce back to school with me every time I come home for a visit. It is to die for. I just made some rigatoni and added some sautéed portabella mushrooms.

TOMS

I absolutely love the TOMS concept, of giving people in need a pair of shoes for ever single pair bought. I was so excited when the Journeys by me, had a day where local artist came and customized the TOMS you bought within a certain time period. So I just had to lay down to get a custom pair of shoes for such an amazing cause.

Current Obsession

My current music obsession is definitely Broken Bells, which is the side project of James Mercher from the Shins. His voice is just so amazing and the songs are so much fun. I looooove the Shins but this is a totally different sound with his distinct voice. Such an amazing band to listen to while road tripping.